Thursday night I walked into the kitchen not knowing what I was doing and then I heard my stepmom ask me, “We are going to Phoenix this weekend. Do you want to come?” I wondered why they would be going because they only go on special occasions. Then it hit me, the girls’ state softball game was going on. I contemplated going.
My mind was listing the pros and cons of whether I should go or not. The “devil” in my head was telling me that I could get away from this windy weather, go swimming, and maybe even go shopping. That sounds like the perfect weekend right? Wrong.
The “angel” in my head was reminding me that going would mean spending money, sitting in hot weather for hours, and stressing like crazy over homework on Sunday night.That to me was an unsettling image.
By now you’ve probably guessed it. I declined the offer to spend the weekend in Phoenix. You’re probably thinking I’m crazy right now, but trust me I have good reasoning.
I noticed that I just can’t jump at any fun opportunity anymore. There are factors that go into my decision making now. I have to think of my grades, my health, and my finances. I’m not a child anymore. I am an adult and I have to think of my what will benefit me in the best way.
I mean I could’ve took my laptop and did my work on the way to Phoenix, but I’ve tried that before and it didn’t quite work out the way I wanted it to.
As for the finances, I don’t currently have a job, so I’m tight on money. I have both high school and college expenses to pay for. My stepmom even told me that I wouldn’t have to spend any of my money, but I don’t really like it when other people pay for me nor do I like asking for anything. I’d rather do nothing than spend other people’s money.
Since I didn’t go, I got to spend my weekend by myself all alone in my house. I woke up, watched Netflix, cleaned, and did homework. I walked around the house several times trying to find something to entertain me. Because it was only me, the house was quiet as a rock. I either kept the tv or music playing. I was bored out of my mind. It felt weird not talking to anyone.
From this experience, I’m glad I have school to keep me busy and out of the house. I don’t know how I would survive staying home every single day. I’m also glad to have friends and family to talk to. Communication is a great gift.
Although I was super bored and lonely, I think I made the right decision of staying home this weekend. I probably saved a lot of money and saved myself from some awkwardness. If I went, I would probably be typing this blog late tonight, stressing. And that right there is why I’m thankful I didn’t go.
As sad as it is, this is so true. I have found myself making hard decisions too, and choosing the more "boring" one. I think this is just all part of growing up. It's hard, but it is all part of life. I am glad you got to stay home and watch some Netflix, I know that is one of my favorite things to do. I am glad you shared this story. I love reading your blogs!
ReplyDeleteChildhood was a carefree time of life; all of our previous worries seem so small compared to what we have to deal with now, don’t they?
ReplyDeleteI’ve found that “fun times” aren’t as fun as they were before. There are always things we are supposed to be doing or watching out for, obligations that eat at our thoughts and prevent us from truly enjoying something.
It’s at this point in our lives that we truly understand how finite our time is and how rapidly it passes us by.
I like to think that if I work hard now, I won’t have to work nearly as hard in the future. Even if that isn’t true, I’m sure that the work I will have to complete will be more satisfying. Only time will truly tell, but I’m glad I’m not the only one taking the initiative to make their own lives easier by thinking ahead.
And I’m glad you’re not lamenting the fun you could have had, but celebrating the stress you avoided.
I myself have been in your situation to make the decision of choosing work over fun. I'm glad that you chosen work over fun, plus it came with Netflix. If you went to Phoenix you would've got sunburn #toohot.
ReplyDeleteAlso, you're right, we're adults and must spend our money correctly. I enjoyed reading what you had to share.
I really enjoyed your blog! I find myself making decisions like these a lot more now. Just the other day my friend asked me if I wanted to go out to eat. I thought about how much it would cost and how I have so much I have to pay for in the coming months. I went. I think you are better at making good decisions than me and I’ll have to follow your example next time a decision comes up. Thanks Chanda!
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